dolphins_log

Every so often, usually because of a convention, I experience a resurgence of creativity. It takes me down my path of various pursuits; writing, drawing, painting, photography.

Then it fades. Something comes up and distracts me. Something frustrates me. Often, at the very point of jumping on a creative spark, life steps in and makes demands on my time. Eventually the creative surge fades, or even the activity of my desire is completely forgotten, to the point where if it ever comes back there is a little thought bubble "Oh yeah, I was interested in that, wasn't I?"
There's even a little "Brain fog" if you will. -{Love that part of "Joe -vs- The Volcano."}- It's hard to think through a particular point, and I just want to sit in the sun and clear my head, meditate maybe, think of "nothing" in all it's myriad hues.

I've been without work for over 2 months now, so I've had plenty of time to chase down some of these creative avenues. I've chased down a few, the art room has new lighting. I've played with some of the thousands of photos in my image library and made Easter cards.
Still, I could have done so much more.

I've found that eating right, and getting exercise, gets the thought processes rolling. I've gotten a bit addicted to vegetables and I keep them in the house. I tend to reach for carrots of cucumbers rather then bread a cereal, though I see where it would be so easy to fall back into other habits. Specially when Juli wants a nice gooey toasted cheese sandwich for dinner, or hot dog roll-ups. I'm not apposed to cooking two meals, and I've done that a number of times.

Perhaps I should bring "List Man" back out of hibernation and map out a direction. List man can do anything!

I don't get enough sleep. I get about 5 hours a night. I probably need to get on my own schedule rather then match up with Juli's.

Now I'm on a bit of a sudo-vacation. Tomorrow we spend the day cleaning the studio, and Friday we have our party. I still get up at 5 AM, but I get to relax a little in the process.

I got to thinking about the next few months. Since the company is winding down I'm going to have some time to myself to contemplate me future. I'd like to work on my health a little. I'm talking about getting to the gym regularly. Getting some sleep. Losing the weight.

I imagine myself working on writing and getting into the art room. That would be nice. The main focus will be what the next career move will be. I'm not concerned just yet as I may be still taking a pay check from here until July. There is a lot to take care of in the shut down and clean up of the studio and the Rollingbay building. That needs to be cleaned up. It would be better if there were a cut off date of, say, March or April.

I haven't been able to just "Think". I look forward to being able to think again. That sounds odd, but then it's a bit true. I came close yesterday when I wrote a response to Mark's LJ entry. Writing was fun again.

I'm just tired. But now I'm a little relaxed, a little bit on vacation. I'm looking forward to it.