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To Class or not To Class
Feb. 12th, 2002 09:54 pmI'm having a difficult time with this one. I'm taking a class at SVC. The classes have been very educational and a lot of fun. This last one is Intermediate Design. My problem is that this; I'm not getting anything out of it. This is the instructors first class, and quite frankly I don't think he's doing very well. I don't have any confidence in him.
Or is it that I don't have any confidence in myself? I have to address that because I've been there in the past. No. This time I can honestly say that I have confidence. I've lost confidence in the instigator's ability to communicate his ideas to me. But then ideas in the art field have always been less verbal and more conceptual, so I'll give him credit there.
There's another complication here. I took the class to find out more about graphic art [once called commercial art]. From this instructor I've established a good idea of what it needs. I think it needs a little more skill on my part. Consequently I want to get my fine art back underway. I've got this itch to get moving on it. Now this "obligation" to finish this class is in the way.
I have all of the instructors and coaches of my High School days hovering around in my head. They are all saying "Finish what you start." "Stick with it." "Don't be a quitter." "Don't be a failure." "You paid for it after all." "At least do the last five weeks."
I just realized that I feel somewhat guilty for not getting my homework done. I certainly didn't loaf off. I focused on other things I felt were more important. I'm not a high school student any more, I'm a middle aged adult. I have a right to use my time how I think is best.
...And I think I have it. If I choose to let this class go then I have to commit to getting my fine art skills up and running. I've done life drawing quite a bit and I've been very good at it. Now I need to push other creative venues forward.
Ah. So now that I've made that assertion I feel a little better about going back to class. I may not get the work done, but I may still learn something from the instructor. We're touring his studio at Methodologie tomorrow. Maybe I'll see something that sparks my imagination.
Or is it that I don't have any confidence in myself? I have to address that because I've been there in the past. No. This time I can honestly say that I have confidence. I've lost confidence in the instigator's ability to communicate his ideas to me. But then ideas in the art field have always been less verbal and more conceptual, so I'll give him credit there.
There's another complication here. I took the class to find out more about graphic art [once called commercial art]. From this instructor I've established a good idea of what it needs. I think it needs a little more skill on my part. Consequently I want to get my fine art back underway. I've got this itch to get moving on it. Now this "obligation" to finish this class is in the way.
I have all of the instructors and coaches of my High School days hovering around in my head. They are all saying "Finish what you start." "Stick with it." "Don't be a quitter." "Don't be a failure." "You paid for it after all." "At least do the last five weeks."
I just realized that I feel somewhat guilty for not getting my homework done. I certainly didn't loaf off. I focused on other things I felt were more important. I'm not a high school student any more, I'm a middle aged adult. I have a right to use my time how I think is best.
...And I think I have it. If I choose to let this class go then I have to commit to getting my fine art skills up and running. I've done life drawing quite a bit and I've been very good at it. Now I need to push other creative venues forward.
Ah. So now that I've made that assertion I feel a little better about going back to class. I may not get the work done, but I may still learn something from the instructor. We're touring his studio at Methodologie tomorrow. Maybe I'll see something that sparks my imagination.
